I have come to the realization that I tend to come to my journal, normally when I’m sad. Unfortunately, such is the case tonight.

I don’t really know why. I’m sitting out in my backyard in my homebuilt Jacuzzi just thinking. Not really about anything in particular, just thinking.

I think I am subconsciously worrying about my future. I really am not making any headway towards any relationships. I went out with Kylie for five or six dates but at this point in time we haven’t spoken for six weeks. I am not as disheartened about that, as I would make it seem because I wasn’t super interested in her, but am more disappointed that I have no continuing relationship.

I overheard Sarah and