Well, I have had a realization about Hannah after taking off my rose colored glasses.
Last night, Bryce and Sarah invited Hannah and I to come over to Sarah‘s parents house and have a bonfire. I brought some pork shoulder and the meat grinder up there so that we could package it. Hannah helped me.
During our work in the kitchen, I came to realization that Hannah is much larger of a person than I had come to realize. I was standing at the kitchen sink washing my hands and I looked over to see Hannah and Sarah standing side-by-side and even with Sarah being seven months pregnant, Hannah was still bigger. It was a pretty shocking eye-opener to me. Up until this point, I really hadn’t taken the time to notice how out of shape Hannah was, primarily because I was just trying to get to know her in the first place.
This realization also came after considering for the past week how I felt about demeanor being so shy and reserved after being with Crystal for the whole last week, Crystal was always so upbeat and animated. That is something that I have been looking for in a girlfriend and thought that Hannah might break out of that shyness stage at some point, but it has yet to happen. 
I think that I am going to have to have a talk with Hannah and I don’t really know how to go about it. Even if I discuss with her the aspect of her attitude, even if that changes, I don’t know if her weight can or will change. I think the thing that, strikes me the most is that I’m not excited to see her because of these issues.
Honestly, it’s kind of a depressing thought because of the same time that I wanted this to work, I don’t think it will because of these extraneous factors and it sucks even more that I wasted over six months on this…